I appreciate your openness about how you personally feel and what you personally have chosen to believe (or not to believe). It’s when atheists and nihilists disparage those who choose to believe in being connected to something greater, that we have a problem.

Now, you’ve devolved into exactly the same position as a spiritual person who insists their belief is right and yours is wrong. All the realm of ego, with some unmet need to prove superiority.

A belief is simply a belief, not truth. Until we die, none of us will know for certain, so choose the belief that works for you and leave everyone else alone to do the same…