It Takes Time to Shift Your Life

Maybe even years…

Bevin Niemann-Cortez
5 min readJan 7, 2022

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Almost ten years ago, I experienced a dramatic re-awakening. It was my second major shift in perception, as a young child, I was very tuned-in to not only the world around me, but also the energetic world beyond the 3-D.

Back then, I decided to leave a long-term relationship. I was losing my sense of Self, or perhaps up to that point, I never had a clear sense of self. I finally faced the truth that almost nothing I had chosen was working in my favor.

Not my relationships, not my career, and not the way I was neglecting my physical body.

I knew I needed to make huge changes but had no idea what that path would entail. Seriously, if I had known back then how many dark nights of the soul I would navigate, or how many people, places, and things I would release — I might have stayed stuck.

This journey of a billion awakenings is not for the faint of heart.

I remember sitting down with a group of women and asking how long they had been single? One told me 5 years, another said 15 and I was shocked. I thought to myself, well that’s never going to happen to me. Note: I still had a lot of relationship baggage to unpack and play out, but I couldn’t see it at the time.

Ironically, it wasn’t until nine years after that conversation that I finally met my life partner and soulmate. All that time, I wasn’t ready for this relationship, or this level of maturity. Truth.

I spend the better part of a decade focusing on my health — mental, emotional, physical, and spiritual. I had long periods of stagnation, mind-blowing quantum leaps and inch by inch progression. Sometimes I was impatient to just get there already! Alternately, I became overwhelmed by too many downloads, being too wide open with my gifts and trying to take on too much shadow work at once.

I saw this meme (anonymous author) and it spoke so eloquently about what’s needed to walk this path:

Ah, the rabbit hole. A nod to one of my childhood favs, Alice in Wonderland. A fanciful tale (pun intended) of…

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Bevin Niemann-Cortez

Social-Emotional Healer | Sacred Space Designer | Budding Herbalist